To be raped?
To have someone force me…
Force himself…
To have me whimpering and begging for death
Searching for help
Grasping…trying to hold
Hold on…hold on to hope…
Hold on to the thought that this will pass
To be without voice for minutes
While hands….
Strange hands ravage through me?
To live in torments months after
This…..
This I would like to know
So I can feel
Feel what these girls feel
So I can comfort
Knowing that I have first hand knowledge
To be beaten?
Beaten up by someone I love….
Beaten to a pulp
But……. still staying
Still….still caring….still loving
Still dedicated
Still willing to stay
Still willing to correct the faults he finds in me
This I would like to know
So I can understand
Comprehend why these women stay
Stay……..with men who abuse them
Who torture them
Physically
Emotionally
Mentally
I would like to finally ‘get it’
To be cheated on?
Yes, I’d like to know how that feels
To have my trust shattered
I’d like to know what I’d do?
What I’d say?
How I’d react?
I might scream
Maybe faint
Or throw a fit
I might probably walk away
Walk away?
How possible is it to walk away?
Walk away from love
From someone I have given my heart?
My body
My soul
How possible is it to walk away?
To be dumped?
Abandoned by my so-called soul mate
I’d like to know
Will I cry?
Or brush it off?
Will I run to the arms of another?
Or will I consider myself used?
And of no good?
To be dumped?
To have him leave me
Leave me after….
After all the years I have invested into him
Into us…
Into me…..making myself presentable
Suitable
Wantable
All for him
To loose a child?
To loose one I carried
One I birthed
To loose one still within me
Still growing
Still forming
How will that be?
How will I feel?
How will I carry on?
I’d like to know
I wish I could
Written by: ADEBANKE FALADE