A roller coaster has nothing on the transition between altitude and depth these feelings give me.
One minute I’m in an utopia with the thought that nothing can go wrong and the next I’m brooding, wallowing in loneliness and self pity.
Just because you want to give someone your whole world doesn’t mean they want to take it.
Signs, they say, are not hard to read… Yet, it’s seemingly hard to see a positive sign without a negative glitch somewhere. Hand in hand they follow each other these signs, and it is our fragile and enigmatic nature as humans to thread paths ridden with broken glasses regardless of the polarity of the signs we see.
For the thrill of it I suppose!
Sadly, not everyone is made that way. Some just feel too comfortable in their shell, afraid to let go, afraid to lose control, afraid to do something new, something beyond their ‘normal’, especially when it involves attachment to someone who doesn’t believe a shell exists.
Someone who’s ready to give them his world, someone who’s ready to drop all his vices for them.
In the end, partially attached, they become stuck in a spiral, an emotional vortex of some sort.
Conditions become too turbulent for their delicate and unexplored heart and a desire to return to their shell seems the golden and only logical choice.
Detachment becomes priority for them as loneliness, numbness and pain sets in, more of it for one of them, the one without a shell i suppose.
Both hearts begin to fade away… And what for, the comfort of a shell or just the unfairness of life?!
Ademola Kunle
@kunlexy