“I’m pregnant”
Those words
How I longed to say them for months
I just couldn’t
I had to wait
To see his face….
It was bliss
Having him declare his love for me
Having him hold me
Never wanting to let go
I knew
It was worth the wait
I couldn’t stop the doubts
I tried
I just couldn’t
I had to ask
“Would you be around”
His reply was simple
“I’m around now….I’d be around tomorrow”
I tried to plead….
I had to shout…demanding he stayed
For this one
‘Our first child..don’t you want to be here’
I knew the answer already
I just closed my mind to it
‘ I hate you…I hate this’
He tried to touch me
I just couldn’t bear it
‘I HATE YOU!’
His answer….always the same
“This is the life I chose
I told you that”
Its been over an hour now
Locking myself up isn’t helping
I want him
I need him
If only for this night
I want him inside me
*sigh*
He was already packing
‘I’m sorry’..he tried to apologise
‘I didn’t mean to hurt you’
I couldn’t let him finish
I whispered but clear enough
Clear enough for him to hear
‘Love me’
Written by: ADEBANKE FALADE